fun, fun..

In the last 48hrs I have gotten about 4hrs of sleep on and off. I'm so freaking tired today, I wish I could crawl in bed and sleep. Vance is at work so I can't. Plus now I have a stomach ache, keep feeling like I'm going to hurl. But haven't so far. My body is always aching all over. Taking care of Bryce and Caleb is getting harder every day. The baby has been laying on a nerve since I was 20wks. Which causes the worst leg/back pain. I can't bend over at all without crying. My left knee which isn't the best gives out when I walk at times. So I avoid stairs, since I'm scared it will give out and I'll fall. I am 28wks today, getting so close to due date. Ready for Aiden to be here, ready to have my body back to myself.

This is our last baby, people ask why not try for a girl. My body hates pregnancy thats why. I always having issues through out the pregnancy with bleeding, blood pressure, chest pains. Plus in delivery I always seem to have something go wrong. Like preeclampsia, hemorrhaging, etc. I'm already terrified of giving birth this time, just because my dr is certain the hemmorrhaging will happen again. She said this time I will need blood after its all over with. So I've been nervous about getting someone else's blood. I really don't want anyone else's blood in less I know them personally.

Ready for my next apt to hit already so I can ask to be checked. Just been having contractions on and off for weeks. Plus so much pressure all the time. I feel like Aiden is ramming his head on my cervix all day long. Sometimes all the pressure makes me feel like, he's going to just drop out of me while I'm walking.

Caleb and Bryce are doing good. Bryce is excited that Christmas is getting closer. He has a list of things he would like to ask Santa for. He is very pumped up Christmas. Every morning he asks "how many more days?" He is still adjusting to the thought of another little brother. He's not looking forward to all the crying a babys does. He still insists that we're having a little girl. He wants a sister not another brother.

Caleb is talking more and more everyday. He can now say snack, trash, cracker, yogurt, cookie, drink, no, yes, hush, bryce, momma, dada, hat, and some other things I can't think of at the moment. He seems to learn a new word everyday. Just runs around repeating the new word he can say that day. At the moment he seems to have acid reflex really bad. Especially at night. I need to get him in for that, nothing I give him at works seems to help. Plus he started running a fever, coughing all last night. So today has been a fun day of crying and wanting to be held all day.


Not much more to write at the moment. Think I'm going to go lay on the couch for awhile. I have had the urge to hurl all day, and really just want to crash at the moment. Vance will be home in an hour, then I am so laying down for a little bit