Our new addition

Ladies and Gentlemen I give you the newest member to our family. Mr. Hammy Braziel the hamster. He's a teddy hamster and is so cute. He is also Bryce first pet, he loves Hammy. Ever since I brought him home today he's been playing with him. Hammy ran around th living room in his exercise ball chasing Bryce. Vance loves him too, he keeps holding him and letting him climb all over him. He was a little shy at first but after biting Vance once, and realizing we wouldn't hurt him. He doesn't mind being held at all.

BTW Jean, no you cannot feed him to your snakes or Godzilla! Bryce says NO AUNT JEAN!

Pudding finger painting

Bryce starting a new painting

My little artist hard at work

mmmm..yummy!

at the end he just wanted to keep eating it

So after dinner I made the boys finger paint out of pudding. I would have used real finger paint but the boys are still at the age where they want to eat everything. Or so I thought, Bryce didn't believe it was pudding in til Caleb started pigging out after finishing his picture for daddy's gift. Hopefully Vance will like the boys pics they made. Tomorrow Bryce is going to color him a card to go with it.

My son the makeup artist?

So Bryce decided that while I was changing Caleb's diaper. He would go get into my makeup. He loves to destroy it usually but today he gave it a shot. Think he watched his aunt Jean do her makeup to much..he did one of his eyes with my eyeliner. And it actually looked like he tried his best, so I was annoyed but couldn't help laughing at him. Would have gotten a better pic but he was laughing and saying how pretty he was, lol.

Memories..

I was cleaning my blog out on myspace, getting ready to delete some things off of there. When I came across a letter I wrote for Vance one yr ago. When he was deployed, Bryce's last bday. Almost exactly 1yr to the date. Figure I repost it, it made me laugh. Vance loved that email said he read it over and over to get thru that patrol. We're it says 5yrs in August its now about to be 6yrs this August. I can't believe we've been together for 6yrs. It doesn't seem that long, time passes by fast.

Dear Vance,

I know you haven't been gone for long, but I'm already missing you like no tomorrow. Today I watch the sunset as I was driving to pick my sister up from work. As I was driving and listening to a cd I burned, I couldn't help but to remember all these great memories we share togather.

One being the first time we kissed, I'll never forget it. I remember laying on bed in whitney, I had just turned 17 and you were 20. I remember we had been hanging out all day long, went for a long walk just talking about whatever came to our minds. Then went back to my room just to chill..it was kind of funny. I was a little nervous, and kept rambling on when you leaned in said I talk to much and kissed me. For a short moment I felt like time stopped, and I felt like their were butterflys in my tummy.

Or remember when we got engaged? I flew out to Georgia on Valentines day 2004, but didn't get there til the 15th due to the awful snowstorm. I remember you took me to the waterfront for the first time it must been about 10 or 11 at night. The sky was so clear that we could see every star, we were standing on the one dock that is all by itself with the benches and everything, We stood there for so long just looking at the stars and the water when you dropped down and ask me to marry you..I was speechless for a few minutes as I watch you slip the ring on the wrong finger at first lol. I corrected you, and said yes. That was a great night, I was trying to hold back tears, and was shivering since it was really cold out lol. That August we married and I moved to Georgia to be with you. :)

Remember when we first moved in togather and had that sock ball fight, lol. We ended up wasting a day of unpacking running around throwing sockballs at each other lol. You won, then again you had tons of sock balls in a pile ready to get me..while I had what few socks you didn't steal lol. That was a fun day, you ended up winning in the end, cause you cheated if you ask me lol.

I remember when we first got married and we had been drinking, we were at my moms and for some odd reason you thought it would be funny to dress up in my clothes, lol. You came out in these short shorts I had, with you hairy legs lol. Prancing around the house imitating me, and I joked about how your butt looked better in my shorts then mine did lol.

We've had some great memories together, 5 yrs this august. Times seems to be flying by, we have 2 little boys now. Who are growing up so fast. Bryce is already 2 and reminds me so much of you. He has your perfect smile, your nose and elf ears. I love just watching you two roll around the living room wrestling, or laughing when you two butt heads since you two are so much alike. Caleb really looks like you with the dark hair, nose, elf ears, and your eyes, He's already getting better at holding his little head up for a few seconds at a time, and he smiles more and more.

I look forward to the years to come, and to spending the rest of my life with you. Your the love of my life, and I don't know where I be without you in my life. I love waking up to you every morning, or falling asleep in your arms talking about whtaever comes to our minds. I can't wait for you to be home again, I can't wait til your shore duty starts it will be nice not having to say goodbye, well more like see you later every few months. God I love you so much, more then you'll ever know.
I can't wait to grow old with you and see all the grand babies we'll have then. See Bryce and Caleb grow into men and have family's of their own. Or any other children we might have, yes I'm still hoping you'll give in and we have another in 2010. You know your going to give in, lol.

Anyways guess I'll close here since I need to put the kids to bed, I love you baby and can't wait for you to come home. Even though by the time you read this you'll already be back home.

Here I am - Leona Lewis

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

my new location to vent and ramble!

So I'm starting this basically to avoid drama on myspace. It seems certain things I say people tend to take it the wrong way. Or better yet some people assume that everything I write is about them . I'm tired of telling them its not and figure I make it easier by not posting much on there anymore if at all. So if you got an email with this addy then your some of the few who even knows about this blog.

Something I need to clear up to begin with is no I do not talk to Krystle anymore. I have not heard from her in 6months. No we did not get into a fight or anything. Just she seems to have vanished and I am to tired to try to make contact anymore. I'm so sick of any of her ex boyfriends msging me telling me to find her for them. Guess what she doesn't want to talk to you, get over it. Plus last time I talked to her she was happy and engaged. So obviously there will be no need to talk to any of you.

Vance and I are tying to conceive our last baby. This is our second cycle to try, I'm hoping it doesn't take to long. If it does then thats fine. We were going to wait til September before we even started to. But both decided to go for it now that way the baby will be here sometime early next yr. A little nervous about getting pregnant again, since both boys delivery had some kind of complication.

Plus everyone I know who has gotten pregnant has lost the baby or had to terminate because it was non-viable. My sister had to have a D&C, her first sonogram showed she had a molar pregnancy. She is waiting for her HCG levels to go back down to 0. Which she's almost there then she is going to try again. Which I'm looking forward to being an aunt. My brother in law, girlfriend just miscarried there baby not to long ago. I feel so bad for them. He was so excited about being a daddy. I'm not sure if they're trying again or not. He joined the national guard and will be leaving soon.

My brother Kevin is getting ready to ship out to Iraq for 15months. He is in the Army and this will be his first deployment. I'm a little nervous and scared for him to go. I know my parents are really worried that he might not come back. I'm trying to stay positive for them, plus going to be mailing my brother lots of goodies while he's away. I know he wants pictures, letter, junk food, etc. Anything that will pass time and make him smile. So I'm taking turns with my mom every month on who sends him packages.

Colorado life is pretty nice. Its alot bigger then where I was in Georgia. Everything is so much closer to my apartment. I use less gas then I did in Georgia, I use to fill up 4 times a month in ga. Now I fill up maybe 2 times a month and I do alot more here then I ever did in Ga. I still miss the beach and everyone there. We plan on buying a house to live in for the rest of our lives when we go back in 3yrs. But as for now I'm enjoying my life out here. I love seeing the mountain every morning when I wake up. The people seem nice here, I joined a playgroup and have met some awesome women here.

In fact, for Bryce 3rd birthday next week I'm having a party for him. If the weathers nice we will all be out by the pool for it, having a good time. Bryce loves the playgroup, he is so much happier now that he's making friends here. Even is bugging me to put him in preschool this fall so he can make more friends. Now if only I could get him to use the potty all the time. He can be so stubborn and claims that a monster lives in the toilet. *sighs*

Caleb is getting so big. He's now 1 and is walking more and more everyday. Everyday he takes more steps by himself, plus he learned to climb onto the couch and everything else. He's working on figuring out how to escape from his crib. So we're going to go get bunk beds for the boys sometime in the next 2wks. It will give them more room to play in their room. Plus more room for all their toys they own.

Apartment is constantly covered in toys that the boys drag out all over the house. I love when they go to bed and everything is put up and organized. Especially since it can drive Vance crazy at times, when I first met him he was obsessed with cleaning. Everything had its place, so after we has kids he's finally learning that the house will not always be as organized as he would like it to be.

Ok, so I think I'm gonna stop rambling here. I have things to do that must get done. If you want to keep up this blog and would like. I can type your email addy in and it will let you know when I have updated. You don't even have to sign up for blogger to leave comments or get updates. Since I know how some of you are lazy! Just let me know and I will add your email for updates, other then that you can check back from time to time.