What to do?

Have a lot on my mind with what to do for Lucy. I want her to have the best life possible, and give her everything. Thats why we took her in. Then we found out she had heartworms. Which the first vet put her on meds said that would take care of it. Then she saw another vet who was pissed at the first vet. Because he should have never given her the pills in til her heat cycle was over and confirm she wasn't prego. She turned up prego, so off those meds she went. Everything is good with the pups she has 8 pups, none have heartworms. They can't get them from her in less a mosquito bites her then them. Its to cold for mosquitos right now, plus they all stay nice and warm in the office all day. Now my concerns, after she is done nursing her pups, she will need to get treatment. Since she is getting really bad, and heartworms can cause major damage to her real quick. Well the treatment is around 1,200. Which at the moment is impossible for us to afford, or I would be happy to pay for all of it. I'm going to get the xray done to make sure its not to late for her. They need to do an xray/sonogram to see how bad her case is. From there they can tell me if she'll make it thru the treatment or is it better to put her down. :o( Which I would hate to see. If it is safe for her to do treatment, I might need to find her someone who is able to give her what she needs to survive this. I would hate to say goodbye, but I want her to have a long healthy life. At the moment I wish I could pay for the treatment on my own and keep her. She's the most lovable dog. Very quiet and gentle, house broken, well behaved, loves my kids, etc. Just want to get her healthy and with money being super tight its hard for me to do that at the moment. I'm not looking forward to the shit I'll get from people who can't see that I really am trying to help her, if that means giving her to someone who can afford to do this treatment for her. What does everyone else think? I've been debating this in my mind for a few days now. I would feel alot better knowing she has someone who can get her the medical help she needs, instead of watching her slowly pass away. Someone please let me know what they would do. I'm really torn here, and want the best for Lucy.

Her puppies are doing good, they all open their eyes. Some are walking around, some still crawling. Oreo seems to be leading her brother and sisters. She's the first to do everything, open her eyes, walk, bark, etc. She's already has a forever home waiting for her. So I'm happy to know she'll be tooken care of. She's going to my moms. So I'll see her when I'm in Texas.

Vance and I are thinking about keeping Panda, she reminds us so much of her mommy. Especially if we have to say goodbye to Lucy we would like to keep one of her babies.

I have 6 more beautiful little pups to find homes for. They are very lovable I lay in the office playing with all of them, everyday. They love to cuddle and be loved on. Their starting to realize they have voices and are letting their voice be heard. We get little barks here and there, when they want attention. Or when they need Lucy to come to them. I really want to make sure they go to good homes, and not dog fighters or anyone like that. So I'm being super picky on who will get one of these adorable pups. Prefer them to go to people we know, so we can see them from time to time. Yes I'm attached to all of them.


Ok this must seem like a long post to write about Lucy and her pups. But I need some advice on what to do. I'm really torn at the moment.