I'm so scared and nervous lately. I have dreams about everything going wrong. I have anxiety about baby's birth. None of my kids have come naturally at all. All 3 of the boys were induced for pre-clampsia or they were late. With this baby I can not be induced due to prior c-section. They say that pitocin can cause uterine rupture. So that has me freaking scared as hell. The idea of another c-section has me scared as well. In fact the thought gives me a panic attack. I had a horrible c-section with Aiden and I'm so scared to do it again with this baby. I'm trying so hard not to panic or stress over it. But it's all I think about and has been giving me nightmares keeping me up at night. I'm terrified and just want to skip the whole birthing experience at the moment.
I'm trying to keep my mind off of it but I can't seem to. Ugh, I'm not sure how I'm going to do when the day gets here. I really want a vaginal birth but none of my kids have come naturally. So pretty sure this baby won't either. They will only let me go one week over. Great, now I'm crying again. I hope this all works out the way I want it too.
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I'm so sorry about how you're feeling. :( I'm glad to hear that a VBAC is a possibility at least. And sometimes girls are different than boys. So if you ARE pregnant with a girl, maybe she'll come early?! (Audra was my only early one...the boys were induced!)
Wish I could make the anxiety go away. :( You're in my thoughts.
Thanks sweetie! I'm really hoping this baby won't be as stubborn as her brothers and come on her own.
I'm going to try and work on the anxiety as much as I can. Trying to think positive thoughts.
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