So I just feel like venting because I need to. I'm way to stressed out, and tired. I'm happy that Aiden is finally here. Just everything is so hard it seems. My body feels like crap all the time it seems. My stitches hurt, and are draining really bad the last few days. It hurts to touch my stomach at all lately. Now I'm bleeding like no tomorrow, sorry if that tmi. Not getting much sleep at night, Aiden is up always hungry or just wants to hang out with me. Plus he's been having really hard poopies, so he screams when he is pushing. Poor baby.
The older two thinks its fun to push my buttons more then ever. Especially when I'm feeding the baby. They take advantage of it and attack anything in site. Oh and if daddy isn't home, they think its ok to break all the rules and do whatever they want. Which can be fraustrating.
Today is a bad day my chest is killing me. Been having chest pains really bad on and off the last hr. Feels like I'm being stabbed in the heart over and over. Its pretty painful when they hit. Trying my best to relax since its probably from being stressed. But Bryce and Caleb are making it impossible for me to sit down and rest. One of them are always up to no good. They take turns getting into stuff or not listening.
I need to get out of this house and get some alone time. Just for a few hrs do something by myself out of the house will do me some good at the moment. I just can't take it. I'm always stressed out it seems. I'm trying to not be so stressed but I am. *sighs* Aiden is crying for is next feeding so I need to get off here. Just wanted to vent for a few.
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