Pregnancy Blues

The closer I get to my due date, the more anxious/nervous I get. I have even had days where I was wanting baby to hurry up and be here. I just have so many concerns and issues. Can I handle 3 kids? Will this delivery go good? Should I worry about getting blood? Am I going to have the blues when baby is here? Will I be ready for Aiden to come home? Just so many thoughts run thru my head all day long. I think I over worry but can't seem to make myself stop. I know I don't have to much longer til Aiden is here, just ready for that day to arrive.

Tried talking to Vance about all my concerns but sometimes I don't think it gets it. Or even understands, he tells me I'm over reacting alot. I don't think I am. I wish I could not worry so much and enjoy this last pregnancy but I can't seem to make myself. I wish, Vance could be pregnant for a day so he could see how I feel. Or go thru. *sighs*

We've decided money wise, its best to stay in this apartment another year. Vance is giving up his office so that Aiden can have a nursery. In the next 2 months we need to come up with 600 so that we can have everything for Aiden. Thats about how much it all will cost to be ready for him. So going to have a tight budget, especially since its the holidays. I think we can make this work, just got to stick to a budget. Even if it means staying home til then.

The way the doctor has been talking, Aiden will probably be here by Valentine's day. So not to much longer. Can't wait to see our last little boy. I think he looks like his brother in the ultrasound pics. But still can't wait to hold him for the first time.


Bryce is having a hard time adjusting to another sibling. He acts out more the closer my due date approaches. He tells me he doesn't want another brother. That he wants to be my baby again. Doesn't even try to go potty in toilet anymore, throw fits, doesn't listen at all. Trying to give him more attention, and make sure he is included with Aiden's arrival. Just nothing seems to help him not be so angry or upset with us. He tells me all the time that brothers make him frustrated, or annoy him. What do I do to help him with this? I have no idea on what to do anymore. I really don't. I wish I did.

Well need to get off here, take some tylenol for my headache. Started to feel better, think I'm almost done with this stomach flu.