Lucy

Panda, she looks like her mommy. We're going to keep her.

Lucy with her newborn puppies.

Vance with Lucy the day we took her in.

Lucy's first car ride, she loves to ride in the car.

So we came to a decision today about Lucy. Going to give her up to the Humane Society. The vet she goes to says her condition is getting worse, the she might not even live thru the treatment. The humane society says they will give her a fighting chance if I surrender her, and if they can't help her. She will be put down, so she's not in pain or miserable anymore. Making this choice was hard for me, been thinking about it for a week now, trying to figure out what she needed the most right now. We're holding on to her in til the puppies are able to live with just puppy food, plus gives me more time before I have to say goodbye to her. I've been crying all day, and know I'm going to start crying some more when we give her up. I know its the right thing to do but so hard to do. I've only had her in my life since Oct but feel like she's been here forever. She's such a sweetheart, and is so good with the boys. They love playing with her when she feels up to it. Bryce calls her Lucy Goosey, thats his name for her. We're probably going to keep one of her pups. Going to keep Panda, she looks just like her mommy. Right now we're just going to enjoy the little time we have left til we give her up.

I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye to Lucy at all. I feel so horrible that it comes down to this. But want the best for her. Hoping they can help her get healthy again, if not at least I know they won't let her suffer in pain or anything.

Guess I'm going to close this entry here, need to stop crying and get the house cleaned up.