This is me

"Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?" ~Fanny Brice

I decided to write a blog about myself, maybe some will learn more about me. Sorry that it is a little long, I’m trying to keep it somewhat short.

My name is Cassandra, I’m a daughter, sister, wife, mom, and aunt. I was born in Jacksonville, N.C. but was raised in Texas since I was 6. I am the oldest of 6 kids (3 brothers and 2 sisters). I was a tom boy, I’ve never really been into girly things. I never wear dresses, ever. It has to be a very important event for me to wear a dress or good luck with that. The only time I’ve really wore a dress was to my own wedding or someone elses. Other then that I’m happy with jeans and a t-shirt. Just who I am. I don’t really care for make-up. Again, rarely will I wear it.

I’m a shy person. I don’t open up easily. In fact it takes awhile for me to trust people at all. But if you give me long enough time I’ll eventually open up. I'm a very forgiving person, it takes a lot for me not to forgive you. I’m really a big dork. I love laughing and making people laugh. I like helping people out if I can. No matter what it is, if you ask I’ll do my best to help. I love music and to write. I love playing with my kids and spending time with my husband. I cry during movies. I get scared easily from horror movies, I will be up all night thinking that the movie is going to happen to me. I’m clumsy and sometimes, have my blonde moments. I get loud when I feel threatened. I’m very stubborn at times, especially when I’m right. I could care less what people think of me. But say something about my family or friends then I get very defensive. I do have opinions on several subjects and will give them.

Take Medicaid and food stamps. I hate when people judge others for needing help to make ends meet. I was on Medicaid growing up and there isn’t anything wrong with it. My mom was on food stamps to take care of us. I hate when people say that if you use the government for help you’re lazy. That’s not true. My mom worked hard to take care of us and did everything she could to make sure we were raised right. She use to walk to work every morning holding my baby brother to make sure we were tooken care of. She work 12 hour days, come home and do it all over the next day. Just so we could have clothes, electricity, home, etc. I’m very thankful for everything she did to take care of us. I admire her very much for everything she has done.
I hate violence towards children and women. I get disgusted when I hear anything in the news about a child or woman being raped, abused, etc. I have experience some stuff when I was 8 and would not wish it on anyone else. I wish I could help people who have been thru any of that out. Trust me if I could have a million dollars, I would start a foundation or donate to shelter who help victims of abuse out.

I believe in equal rights to all. No matter what. Something that makes me sad is all the people who voted for Prop 8. I think that it is unfair that gay and lesbians cannot get married in some states. I believe they have a right to be joined together like everyone else. They don’t even care if its called marriage. They just want to be recognized as lifetime partners. They deserve to get all the benefits a straight couple would be given who are married. I hate when people bring the bible into it. It has nothing to do with it. If you want to go there, then lets talk divorce. There are so many people who get married for a few months divorce and remarry in no time. Like its nothing. Now I can see if you get out of a marriage because the spouse was unfaithful, or violent. But to marry someone then divorce them because you can is crap. Its alright for them to remarry 10 times but people can’t acknowledge a gay couple who have been together for years and are happy to have each other.

I’m pro-life myself but am pro-choice when it comes to other women’s bodies. I feel they have a right to choose an abortion. I do NOT agree with women who do not use birth control and use abortion over and over. Those women do piss me off. There is so much birth control to pick from, surely something will work for you. Now if the birth control fails and you think that’s best for you then I will support you with anything you need. Personally I would never abort a child myself. But again, that is just me.

I'm going to get off of here, just wanted to share.

Dr. Appt. for the boys

Today was Bryce and Aiden's dr appt. Bryce is 42 inches and weighs 36lbs. Everything checked out fine, even got him the flu mist. Hoping none of us get the flu this year. Dr. Choate did referell him urology for his penis problem. Luckily its not as bad as we thought. But he will need to be knocked out so they can make the hole bigger. Poor baby. Vance is going to have to take him, think I might cry seeing them knock him out. :(

Next up was Aiden. His head is 18 inches, he is 28 inches and weighs 18lbs. He did great with the checkup, just a little grouchy from no nap. He had 4 shots today including the flu shot. Has to go back in 30 days for another dose. Other then that the doctor said he was perfectly healthy. He's in bed now sleeping. He's a little cranky when he moves his legs, but motrin should help.

As for Caleb he didn't have a checkup today since he doesn't need one til his next birthday. He did end up getting the flu mist as well. Figure might as get all 3 of them done at once. Save us a trip to the dr. office. Caleb was the only one to have a meltdown. The minute they start taking Bryce and Aiden weight he freaked out. He thought for sure he was going to be getting a shot today. Especially when he saw Aiden get some, and they called him over for the mist. I was so glad to get home and feed the kids dinner.

Now we're waiting for tricare to call with Bryce appt. for Urology. Other then that the boys are healthy and everyone is doing good.

Pictures of the boys

Just wanted to post pictures of the boys.

My dog is spoiled..

As Bryce calls her "Princess Leia". She doesn't do rain or mud. If it's raining outside, forget taking her out. She rather hold it and pout out the window then go out to potty. Such a stubborn dog. I know by Halloween, we should have snow. Which means I need to get her some snow boots and a coat to go out to potty. So she doesn't freeze, if she'll go out at all. She's going to the groomers tuesday for a nice day of pampering. Bath, trim, brushing, nails, ears, etc. With my luck she won't want to come home to the kids chasing her around the house, lol. Probably get her a new bandana and bow to wear.

She such a spoiled girl. She came in from using the potty outside the other day. Usually I give her a treat when we come back in but I forgot. Well she was quick to remind me. She sat in front of the cabinet I keep the treats and barked til I realized I forgot her treat. She has her routine down and man she won't let you forget at all, lol.

I love my doggy Leia, even if she can be a snooty booty when it comes to mud or anything icky on her paws. Even if she did eat every pair of shoes I own, and the boys except our sneakers. I hope she has a nice day at her "doggy spa". I'm going to post before and after pictures on tuesday.

Pictures and short updates. :)

Just wanted to post a few pictures from the last week. Unfortunatly Caleb wouldn't let me get any pics of him, he runs away laughing. It's a game to him.

Bryce is loving school. It's his favorite part of the day and what he looks forward to. He's doing well in the class, and loves his teacher Mrs. Garner. I love him being in school as well. It's nice having one kid gone for a few hours a day. Caleb is still adjusting to Bryce being in school. He gets lonely and asks where Bryce is most days. Hopefully in no timw he'll be use to it and not get so angry when Bryce leaves for school. Aiden is doing well, loves rolling around the living room. He just started practicing with his walker. He's not really sure what to make from it but it gets him off the ground. He's also been very grouchy the last 2 days, we're thinking its teething time again. Hopefully it is this set won't take long to cut thru. All in all the boys are doing good.

We have checkup for Aiden and physical for Bryce on the 16. The school needs me to get a physical on him and also need a doctor to fill out a form about his rasberry allergy. Fun stuff. Bryce isn't going to like it much, since they are going to make him strip out of everything. Bryce hates having no shirt on and they want him to get naked. Oh joy. Luckily Vance is taking him to his physical and I'm doing the checkup on Aiden. Hopefully that appt. will be easy.

Well I need to get off here, need to get the boys in the tub. Hoping to get to bed early tonight, I'm not feeling to well. Hope everyone is doing well.

Bryce starts school!

Figure I would update on here, since I haven't in awhile. The only thing new going on here is Bryce starts school tomorrow at 1pm! He now has school Tuesday-Friday 1pm-4pm at Otereo Elementary. Tomorrow will be his first day of school. He's very excited about it, just doesn't like the part we're we can't stay with him. But I'm sure he'll be fine after a few days. I'll post pictures from his first day tomorrow night or the next day.

If you would like to see photo's of taken of the kids lately, click here. That will take you to my album with all the latest pictures I've tooken of the boys. I would just post them on here, but my computer is being slow today and I need to get back to what I was doing.

Hope everyone is doing good! :)

Blah felt like writing

So lately I've been wondering if my IUD is ever going to stop messing with my body. I have all these side effects lately. I'm extra tired most days, I can't seem to get the weight gain no matter how much I watch what I eat and everything, I have the worse back pain lately. Plus I cramp on and off most days. No period really yet since I've had it in. Just on and off spotting like the dr said I would have. Its almost been 6 month since I had it in. She said by now I shouldn't notice any side effects. That I should be use to it. So why do I feel so out of sync lately. I'm emotional to, several times a day I find myself wanting to cry. Of new sigh my boob hurts like no tomorrow, they feel so heavy. Hmmm..Maybe I should call the midwife who put it in. I have her direct line. Maybe she can answer my questions. Wish I knew more people who had an IUD so I could ask them if they were like this and for how long. I just want to feel "normal" again.

We have so many things coming up this week. Vance needs to fix his truck so I can have my car full time to take Bryce to school. He starts thursday, though I'm still waiting on them to get back to me. Think I'm going to call them in the morning and get all the info. I need. Tired of waiting on them. Its been over a week and still waiting. Aiden will be 6 months on the 18, has his first 2 teeth. So extra grouchy lately and gumming everything he sees. Earlier he was gumming one of his toys that hangs from his gym. He rolled under it and just gummed it while it was hanging above his head. My birthday is on the 22, I'll be 24. Woohoo another year older. So thrilled let me tell ya, lol. The 28 marks 7yrs Vance and I have been together. Can't believe its really been that long. Whats funny is when we first got together I gave it a month tops, 7yrs later we're still together and very happy.

Other then that same stuff, different day still. I redid the main bathroom so now its this underwater theme. Which Bryce loves. He loves all the ocean things. The sharks, fishie, octopuss, starfish stuff. Everything is underwater. He thanked me when he saw it. He's exact words were "thank you mommy for decorating my bathroom, I love the fishies." Yep he thinks as it as his territory which in a way it is. Noone else really uses that bathroom in less its to shower. Thats only because our other bathroom doesn't have a tub.

I really should log off here, and turn in for the night. I had a long last night with Caleb having a tummy bug all night waking me up. Me and him ate some bad food. So we got to suffer while everyone else slept. He's doing better only woke up once so far for a clean pullup and more pepto. So maybe tonight will be a better one for us. I hate sleeping alone, just turn and toss. But I need to make myself sleep. Guess I'll watch a movie on my labtop til I get sleepy. Night everyone, hope everyone is doing good. :)

Wedding Anniversary, Pictures of the boys

Yesterday was our 5 year wedding anniversary. Can't believe we've been married for 5 years already. We had a nice day spending time together as a family. Went out to Applebee's for dinner. Which the boys really liked. All 3 kids were on there best behavior, I was nervous someone would have a melt down. But none at all. Aiden fussed a little, but I gave him a little bit of my tea to help numb his gums from his new tooth that is almost done cutting. So he was happy and went to sleep.

Then we came home, grabbed the double stroller and Leia. All went for a walk to the park. Vance found a trail that leads behind our apartments to a nice little park. Leia loves the trail give her plenty of time to run around and take care of business. The boys were love the walk and fresh air. Plus once we got there, they were running around playing. Bryce was proud that he could do the balancing beam on his own. Caleb was proud he could climb to the top on his own. Aiden just loves being outside and giggled at everything.

After the kids and Leia finished running around there, we headed back home. The boys were so pooped, then hopped into bed and were out in no time. Which was nice to have a night of all 3 sound asleep. Vance and I watched the movie "Push" on demand. Which was actaully a really good movie. I thought it would be stupid, but I actually really liked it. Kind of reminded me of xmen in a way.

All in all, yesterday was a nice little family day. Today we're all hanging out at home being lazy, lol. The kids are maing their bunkbeds into forts and having a little battles. Aiden is scooting around the living room, gumming on his fingers. I'm just chilling in my pj's today. Have a bit of an upset somach.

Here's some pictures from yesterday, hope everyone likes them. I'm off to lay on the couch and relax while the kids play together.